Just as the wave cannot exist for itself, but is ever a part of the heaving surface of the ocean, so I must never live my life for itself, but always in the experience which is going on around me.
~ Albert Schweitzer
How can I be useful? If you aren’t asking yourself that question every day, I submit to you that you don’t yet fully believe that we’re all in this together.
~ Eric Liu
I’ve been sitting here for a little while, maybe thirty or forty minutes, trying to figure out how to start this post. It’s difficult to tell, some days, whether I have too much or too little to say. I’m falling on the side of too much today. Too much of everything, maybe, in terms of how the world is rolling. I’ve started, stopped, deleted, started over, several times.
I am, like many other people, angry, disgusted, frustrated, sad, in grief, sick (not physically), and pretty much all the things. I am also tired, but not nearly as tired or as sick or as angry or as any of the feelings, as those who can’t go for a jog (Ahmaud Arbery), take a walk around their neighborhood (Ezell Ford), play in a park (Tamir Rice), drive home from dinner (Philando Castile), eat ice cream in their living room (Botham Jean), or even go to sleep in their own bed (Breona Taylor), without fear of being killed.
So, let’s take a walk for a little while. It’s been muggy and buggy here, but we’ll manage. There are worse conditions (see above paragraph if you don’t think that’s true). The wind should be shifting sometime soon with the arrival of a cold front. Maybe we’ll be able to feel it as it happens. I enjoy those moments, when things shift for the better.
Maybe we’ll see some of the other inhabitants out and about. Maybe we’ll hear them rustling in the woods or in the marsh grasses, singing, whistling or chattering, splashing in the water, or even slithering across the ground (that’s how I usually end up seeing snakes — I hear their movements). The little bit of world that is what I call the Wabi-Sabi Ranch is quite alive. Humans are the minority when it comes to all the creatures that live on the property.
We can sit on the dock by the creek or the bench by the pond and watch the tide as it ebbs and flows. Maybe we’ll even catch that moment in-between, when it’s neither coming nor going. We can watch for the terrapins to pop up their little heads or the fish jumping and splashing.
The scrounger’s garden is near the pond so we can stop by there to see what the flowers are doing. The irises are almost finished, but the sage has been blooming like crazy. It’s pretty likely we’ll get buzzed by a hummingbird or two while we’re there. They like to come around and check us out.
We could spend a little time watching the crazy bunnies. They can be quite entertaining.
When we’re finished with our walk, we can have a seat on the deck or, if the bugs are really bad, on the screened-in porch where we can continue to watch whatever is going on outside. Maybe we’ll talk. Or maybe we’ll just sit and let the moments pass in a comfortable silence.
Thank you so much for visiting with me today. Please feel free to stay until sunset. I think the clouds might enhance whatever might show up if they continue to thin/clear out. Sunset is scheduled for 8:19 PM. We can watch from the porch or walk out to the dock. Your choice.
Please be safe, be well, and be kind. ♥
A few of the 10,000 reasons to be happy (with a note that this is hard to do lately, but it’s something I think we should be doing when we can): 1,431) Wellness. 1,432) Videos of Wookie and Peanut happily at play. 1,433) Crazy bunnies. 1,434) Young bucks. 1,435) Those who are on the front lines, doing what they can to make this a better country and a better world. For all.
Love takes off the masks that we fear we cannot live without and know we cannot live within. I use the word “love” here not merely in the personal sense but as a state of being, or a state of grace – not in the infantile American sense of being made happy but in the tough and universal sense of quest and daring and growth.
~ James Baldwin