If sequestered pain made a sound, the atmosphere would be humming all the time.
~ Stephen Levine
This is part of being human, this knowing that we are all part of one another, inextricably involved; and at the same time alone, irrevocably alone.
~ Madeleine L’Engle
The wind is blustering and howling and moaning today. I think there is the equivalent of a nor’easter off the coast north of us and that’s bringing in the wind. Those up there, in the north and on the coast, are probably getting the worst of it in terms of rain, wind, and maybe snow. According to the weather folks, our sustained winds have been in the 20-30 mph range with higher gusts. It’s quite invigorating.
I’ve found it’s best, on this type of day, to allow the wind to lead me where it will. Otherwise, I’m fighting it the whole way. I don’t know how it happens but the wind often seems to be coming from all directions here. Maybe it’s the flatness or the layout of the forests and marshes and water. I can’t account for it. I just know that when I’m out and about, I am frequently going against the wind. When I stay on the property, it’s easy to allow the wind to direct me in circles.
Our herd of white-tailed deer have been showing themselves again. It takes a few months after hunting season ends for them to come back out into the open during the daylight hours (usually at dawn and dusk). Yesterday I counted a grand total of eight. No babies yet. They are beginning to put on their spring and summer colors, changing over from the dark browns and grays to a lighter shade of tan.
Out in the woods, I found a dead muskrat. I must have scared off whatever was eating it because there was plenty left to be devoured. I never realized how long their tails are, probably because I usually see them from a distance. I don’t know how you’d interpret a dead animal as a message other than as a reminder that we are all here for a short time.
Today is day 4 of our self-quarantine (after M’s trip out on Monday). I’m hoping we can actually make it to two weeks this time around. No particular reason why, I suppose, other than trying to grasp on to some bit of safety (that might not truly exist). We are not in need of anything for now. There is no reason to leave the ranch (other than for walks and bicycle rides where we do, of course, maintain a safe distance from any neighbors we might see). I’ve only been out-out twice (for the colonoscopy and to grocery shop once) since we came home from visiting my father way back in February. It feels like a long, long time.
Our numbers, like elsewhere, continue to rise. 2,759 cases in Maryland. The number of confirmed cases in our county went up quickly today, from 4 to 16. Since our county is so large, it would helpful if they could tell us where in the country. Others have asked for the same information but so far, they’re not giving it out.
It is day 13 of the 40-day self-care challenge. How are you?
I went for two walks today. I like sunny, blustery days. I spent some time with the Ancient One (the old cedar), telling her my tales of woe and listening to hers. I had a good cry while I was there. Trees are very good at allowing us the space for cleansing ourselves with tears.
I also did a 20-minute meditation with Tara Brach this morning. It was very relaxing. In case you’re interested, you can find it here. I have not yet listened to (watched) the second part of the video and hope to do that this afternoon. I’ve been stressing myself out lately, and think a second round of meditation will do me good.
Thank you so much for stopping by today and spending a little time with me. I hope you and your loved ones and friends are all doing well, and doing what you need to do to stay well. Clouds have been steadily moving in throughout the afternoon. I don’t imagine there will be much to see at sunset, but I will head out to the dock anyway. Sunset is scheduled for 7:28 PM. You’re welcome to join me, at a safe distance, of course.
Stay safe, stay well. ♥♥♥
A few of the 10,000 reasons to be happy: 1,321) The scent of fresh air. It smells so clean and crisp today. 1,322) Watching the wind move across the water. 1,323) Notes from friends. 1,324) The laughter of my grandsons. 1,325) A newly formed local Facebook group. The idea behind it is so that people who need something (from food to toilet paper to help) can post and others who are able can help them out. It’s also to aid local businesses (restaurants and grocery stores) that are still open. They are providing menus, hours for pick-up, etc. I have no plans to go out, but it’s good to know where we could go if we wanted some take-out food. One of my favorite restaurants is still open. Maybe sometime next week we’ll order from them. Apparently they have a good curbside service going.