When no one is watching Mother Earth, and most of the time no one is, she sings softly to herself.
~ Sharon Weil, Donny and Ursula Save the World
A little while back I mentioned that I would be doing an October yogic cleanse/detox with Karin L. Carlson (her website is here). Part of the purpose of it is to prepare for the cold months ahead.
The course began on October 1, but I put it off for a week due to our impromptu trip to Cape May. I began it last Sunday, after our return to the island, only to find myself drifting away from it within a few days. This made me somewhat frustrated and annoyed with myself. Disappointed, maybe. I sat with those feelings for a while and it occurred to me that in addition to my own issues (who go by the names Expectations and Perfectionism), the weather was meddling with my enthusiasm for the process. Although we have finally had some cool days, summer keeps horning in on autumn. Yesterday, for instance, we were in the low 80’s and it was quite humid. It didn’t really feel like a time to be preparing for winter, wearing a scarf, or using oils to keep my skin from drying out. (The humidity, as much as I don’t like it, is apparently good for my skin.)
So, I started over with the course yesterday in spite of the heat, knowing that the cold will arrive eventually (today, in fact). Some are predicting a harsh winter based on folklore. The woollybears are said to be out in force and darker than usual this year. I haven’t seen one yet, but I’m sure they’re around. Acorns are abundant. I saw a raccoon in the woods today and he was showing signs of a hard winter, too. His tail was thick and the bands were bright. The Old Farmers Almanac claims that’s one of the many signs of a rough winter ahead. We’ll have to wait and see if these omens turn out to be right.
Then there were the Expectations. I signed up for the October Panchakarma more than a month before it started. That gave me plenty of time to build up expectations (fantasies!). I thought I’d take the month of October and have a deep, at-home retreat. I’d be doing long yoga practices once or twice a day, meditating once or twice a day, taking long walks, writing, drawing, eating in a yogic cleanse way, drinking spiced/herbal teas, and generally blissing out. I’d be glowing, losing weight, becoming this enlightened being. Ha. Instead, I’ve not been doing most of those things, and found I was drawn to the things I’m trying to release.
Isn’t that always the way? (You can laugh here, if you want. I did.)
My mind was up to its usual tricks and once I sat with that for a while, I found it funny, had a good laugh, and was able to get back to what it is I wanted to do. The false start, as I think of it, turned out to be a good thing because it also gave me a chance to once more come to terms with my old friend Perfectionism, something I use as an excuse to quit the things I start. Plus, our weather is turning towards the cold again. It looks like it might stay that way for a while.
I should note, since I mentioned weight loss, that the October Panchakarma course is not about dieting. While food — whole, nourishing, nurturing, warm food — is part of it, it’s certainly not the whole of it. There is so much more to the program/process.
It’s only been two days since I restarted. It feels different this time. I let go of all expectations and I feel more willing to surrender to the process, so to speak. Let things be what they are. Everything (including life) is so much easier that way.
The Walktober reminders: This year’s dates are October 14th through the 28th. I hope you’ll find the time to walk and participate. (If you need more time, all you have to do is let me know. If you’re unfamiliar with Walktober, you’ll find a link to a post about it in the sidebar, over there to the right. Or, if you’re using your phone, maybe it’s at the bottom somewhere.) I will probably do the round-up of the posts/walks on November 1. That date depends on whether or not anyone needs and asks for more time.
The Official Walktober Post, the one that you should link to for pingbacks (or you can leave a link in the comments), is this one: A Monday meander: The Walktober Post. No worries if you leave your link on one of my other posts. I’ll be on the lookout for them.
Thank you for visiting today and joining me on another walk. We’re still making our way through the hike at Pemberton Historical Park on the Bell Island Trail. Normally I’d be showing you some fall foliage by now, but I’m not sure we’re going to see a lot of color this year. The leaves on some of the trees are just turning brown and dropping off. There are still plenty of leaves left on plenty of the trees so that could change now that the weather has turned. We’ll have to wait and see.
Be good, be kind, be loving. Just Be. 🙂
A few of the 10,000 reasons to be happy: 876) Taking a lesson from autumn and learning how to release. 877) A cool breeze dancing through the woods this morning. 878) Meeting a raccoon (who seemed startled to see me). 879) The many moods of the sky today. 880) Walking. I’ve fallen in love with it again. (Cooler weather helps!)