The present is the object of vision, and what I see before me at any given second is a full field of color patches scattered just so. The configuration will never be repeated.
~ Annie Dillard, Pilgrim at Tinker Creek
Summer is like that, patches of color scattered about. Even in the greenness of the woods, you can find variety in the greens and browns, and if you look closely, you’ll find oranges, reds, and yellows blooming here and there.
Let’s take a walk, shall we? We have had a beautiful and refreshing breeze blowing hither and yon around the ranch today, keeping the heat, humidity, and insects at bay. Or perhaps by the bay. Whatever the case, it’s a pleasant day for a walk.
We’ll start on the Woodland Trail and go out to the dock to catch the breeze there. The wind likes to hang out by the creek, blowing over and around the dock and through the grasses. We’ll probably startle a muskrat or two, a Great Blue Heron, and if we’re lucky, a river otter. The tide is coming in, and the fish have been jumping and splashing today. Maybe they are enjoying the breeze, too.
I have a thousand things I’d like to share with you, but will have to pare it down to this or that, or maybe the other thing. We’ll see what comes up as we walk.
Can you sense that I am restless today? I suspect it is hard to miss. The last few days have been uncomfortable, and in my discomfort I was fearful. In my fearfulness, I found it difficult to make decisions. So, as I walk today, I echo a meditation I’ve been using with reminders that I am safe, I am whole, I am healed.
As Annie Dillard wrote, “The interior life is often stupid.” My interior life has been going round in circles, and not in a very productive way. This morning I woke up and thought, “Enough.” I thought about being whole and healed. I thought about how it was time to stop listening to the negative Nellies residing in my head, and simply breathe. As my mother frequently said of things, it’s not the end of the world.
Speaking of my mother, did you see the doe on the path? Wasn’t she beautiful? You might be wondering what a white-tailed deer has to do with my mother. This post at my old blog explains it, but in a nutshell, whenever I feel the need of my mother’s presence, a doe seems to come along, sometimes in unlikely times or places. Seeing a deer on one of the paths here while out walking is unusual. They hide during the day, and even seeing them from a distance at dawn or dusk is a lucky sighting.
Someone once sent me a quote from The Medicine Cards by Jamie Sans and David Carson:
If Deer has gently nudged its way into your cards today, you are being asked to find the gentleness of spirit that heals all wounds. Stop pushing so hard to get others to change, and love them as they are. Apply gentleness to your present situation and become like the summer breeze: warm and caring. This is your tool for solving the present dilemma you are facing. If you use it, you will connect with Sacred Mountain, your centering place of serenity, and Great Spirit will guide you.
…Deer teaches the need for compassion and kindness towards others and yourself. Don’t drive yourself so harshly! Be gentle with yourself, and you will cease to project your fears onto others. Deer is a power animal that is directing you towards a serenity of heart, mind and spirit. Gentleness has the power to melt a heart of stone.
As we walk to the scrounger’s garden, I think about applying gentleness, and about being as soft and warm as a summer breeze.
You are probably wondering what all the fuss is about. I am still not feeling particularly well, and have had to make decisions about what I should do, but more importantly, about what I want to do, what I need to do. And then I have to trust my decisions.
This morning, finally, I walked. As I walked, my mind calmed and I found some clarity. When I returned home, I took handfuls of vegetables and an apple or two and put them in the crock pot to make a healing, loving, nourishing vegetable broth. I will sip on it for a day or two, helping my body to heal and settle down.
I have made other decisions, and now that I have, I want to continue our walk and let the rest go for now. We can chat about the breeze, the flowers, the beauty of the day. There is rain coming, and behind that, another fresh breeze to tone down summer’s heat.
Thank you for dropping by and taking a walk with me. I hope you enjoyed the breeze as much as I did. Where the deer ducked back into the woods, a little something was left behind. Let’s go see what it is.
Be good, be kind, be loving. Just Be. 🙂
Today’s joys: The patchwork of colors in the gardens; the beautiful breeze; a morning walk; the flowers in the meadows; the songs of the birds.