Every day we will slip in our efforts to live a congruent, conscious life. So what? Get up, try again, slip some more. Imagine life without being controlled by the illusions of fear — fear of not having enough, fear of rejection, and fear of failure. Imagine your fears as having less influence over you. A completely fearless life may be unrealistic, but a life in which you keep your fears at a distance is an achievable goal.
~ Caroline Myss
“Sometimes people let the same problem make them miserable for years when they could just say, So what. That’s one of my favorite things to say. So what.”
~ Andy Warhol, The Philosophy of Andy Warhol
Hello and welcome back! If we we were having coffee or any of a myriad of other beverages (depending on taste and time of day), I would tell you that I am happy to see you again. Hugs to you if you’re accepting them. How are you? What have you been up to (or down to) this week? Have you gone on any good walks or travels? Read any good books or watched any good films? Are you enjoying the summer (or winter, if you’re in the southern hemisphere)? Let’s go sit on the porch and chat.
If we were having coffee, I would tell you that I finished reading The Snow Child. I thoroughly enjoyed it, perhaps because it is based on a Russian fairy tale, and I’m a sucker for any kind of fairy tale. I read one review of the book which claimed the book was “too odd to be real” and thought that was a remark and review that was too odd to be real. It is, after all, a work of fiction. The book is well written, and it is described as being in the magical realism genre. I suppose that’s what a fairy tale is: Magical realism.
I am currently reading Shaman and Anne of Green Gables. Of the two, I’m finding Anne of Green Gables the most delightful. It is another one of those books I somehow missed when I was a child, and after M and I visited Prince Edward Island back in June of 2012, I decided I would read it at some point. I can’t believe it took me this long to get to it. It will take me a little while to finish it since I’m getting it in installments through DailyLit.
If we were having coffee, I would tell you that it was one of those weeks in which I had some slow days and some busy days. The slow days were mostly due to the heat. Sometimes it’s just too hot to move. The busy days involved some running around, doing errands, seeing yet another doctor (a surgeon this time), and working outside once the humidity moved out to sea with a cool front. Yesterday was lovely. Warm (in the 80’s), but with a refreshing breeze that carried away the biting bugs and made it possible for me to do some mowing and putter around in the garden. Today we have had rain. The gardens are grateful. Our local weatherman claims we don’t need any more rain. I think perhaps our local weatherman doesn’t do much gardening. We have been watering our gardens this week. The rain was welcome.
If we were having coffee, I would tell you that the surgeon I saw impressed me with his conservative approach, and by being up to date on the latest recommendations. We are taking the path labeled Wait And See, and that’s as good a path as any right now. Perhaps the best path. We’ll have to wait and see.
One thing I am grateful for was a record of everything that has been going on since the beginning of the year. I am part of a small group of friends who quit smoking together and decided to continue on with our goals by supporting each other via a private blog. I write there nearly every day giving accounts of mundane and not-so-mundane things, and this record allowed me to put together a timeline. I found patterns that gave me insight into what’s going on.
If we were having coffee, I would tell you that I mention all of this because I would like your advice. You see, one thing that emerged was a connection between stress and my health. Of course we all know there is a connection, but it isn’t often that we sit down and see it staring us in the face. Anyhow, it is clear to me that I need to find a better way to cope with stress, and somehow learn to love life and stop worrying about every little and big thing. I was born a worrier. I remember when I was very young and my gymnastics coach made a comment about how I was too young to be worrying as much as I did. She suggested I leave that to the grown-ups.
So, what I’m wondering is this: If you needed to change something about yourself, something that was so ingrained that it was almost a part of your personality, how would you go about it? What would you do to almost reinvent yourself?
If we were having coffee, I would tell you that I am also pondering the notion of acceptance. I could accept that I am a worrier and, well, stop worrying about it. Just be with what is.
I have been almost religiously practicing meditation for the past month or so. Sometimes once a day, sometimes twice a day. If you count my slow walks, you might even say sometimes three times a day. It helps. Meditation calms, soothes, heals. It also makes it easier to be accepting of what is.
If we were having coffee, I would also ask you about probiotics. I know some of you out there take and recommend them. Is there any particular brand you prefer? Do you think some are better than others? There are so many brands out there that it’s tough to choose so any suggestions you have will be appreciated.
If we were having coffee, I’d ask if you’d like to take a walk out to the gardens with me. It is still cloudy, but the rain has stopped and everything looks so pretty with its coating of raindrops.
If we were having coffee, I would thank you for visiting and chatting with me. Thank you, too, for listening and any advice you have to offer. As always, I enjoyed our visit. Feel free to hang around for a while. If the clouds start to clear out, sunset this evening might be worth a trip to the Point. It’s at 8:27 PM. We should leave about twenty minutes or so before that so we don’t miss anything.
Be good, be kind, be loving. Just Be. 🙂
This post is in response to Part Time Monster’s #WeekendCoffeeShare. Put on the kettle, start the coffee maker, open a bottle of wine, or whatever your preference is, and join us. I’d love to hear all about what you were up to this week.