Silence is the source of healing. When we bring things from within ourselves out into the light of awareness, a healing process happens. In the silence, we can let go of all anger, sadness, fear, loneliness and frustration.
~ Swami Dhyan Giten, Presence — Working from Within
It is quiet here on the Wabi-Sabi Ranch today. After a sunny start to the day, clouds thickened and took over the sky. The air is still. I have been practicing stillness, too.
The past couple of days have been filled with motion. On Tuesday I had an appointment with the doctor that resulted in rescheduling the surgery that was postponed. There wasn’t a lot of time to think about it. I went in requesting answers and the doctor called my bluff, so to speak. She had an opening in her surgical schedule on Wednesday. I took it.
It felt right, although I had a lot of inner turbulence about it because even with out-patient surgery, it’s still surgery.
So, M and I had a date night on Tuesday. We went bowling which was tons of fun. It’s something we haven’t done since we moved here. Then we went to the beach to see what the ocean and waves were up to. The nor’easter that brought snow to the New England states passed by our way. It brought plenty of wind and rain, but no snow for us.
The waves were thunderous, crashing and booming. They had some lovely curls, too. It was the right place for me to be during that space of time. A place of liveliness, exhilaration, natural joy. Exuberant Life.
Photographs can not quite capture the beauty and motion of the water or the depth and variety of clouds and colors in the sky.
We had dinner at a found restaurant. “Found” because the restaurant we’d planned to visit was closed so we drove around until we came across this place on the water that turned out to be a great find. The food was wonderful and we were seated near the window where we could watch the ducks fly in at sunset.
It was a good way to head into yesterday’s surgery. I can’t say I was calm, cool, and collected about it. But I did feel ready. All went well. I am grateful to the doctor and to the nurses. I am especially grateful for the nurse who understood what I was talking about when we discussed my nervousness. She told me that the way she thought of it when she had surgery was that she had done everything she could up to that point and now all she could do was relax, trust, and turn it over to the doctor and medical staff, allowing them to do what they could to help her heal. I can’t explain why that was exactly the right thing for her to say to me, but it was calming and reassuring.
I am grateful to M, for everything. He probably won’t be reading this (he rarely visits my blog), but I want to put it out there anyway.
Today I am taking it easy and quickly recovering. There is still some pain, but the wooziness from the anesthesia has finally worn off, and I feel better now that I know some of what was going on. We’ll have to wait for the pathology report to confirm what I thought all along and what the doc thinks now that she’s done the surgery. “Nothing looks suspicious,” she said. That’s code for “it doesn’t look like cancer.”
I guess that’s about it. Thank you so much for visiting. I hope life is going well for you, and that all manner of things are well. We won’t have much of a sunset tonight so let’s just stay indoors where it’s warm and cozy, and have a nice chat.
I’ll be back tomorrow with a book review that I was supposed to have done yesterday. Well, I hope to have it done tomorrow, but we’ll have to wait and see. It doesn’t do to overdo.
Be good, be kind, be loving. Just Be. 🙂